Dear..i really had forgotten that u read my blog..i shouldnt have post it..its the most stupid mistake to ever let u know hows my feeling..now u hurt even more..i'm terribly sorry..this morning when i play 'kelly chen-love paradise' song..i had a dejavu when we both sing together...i was so happy..and so..when i try to sing that song again i dunno why the tear kept on falling down,my voice shake too much..i had no more courage to sing that song..
Yesterday u told me u think of doing suicide..i would never let that happen,if u insist on doing that,,i'll follow u..i dont care what people think about me..all my mind is only filled with u..
If u wish me to be happy,stay alive..im happy as long as u r happy..nobody can replace u in my heart.. I LOVE U..
Im sorry if my sms sounds harsh..but i did that so u could quickly erase me from ur mind..ur bright future lies ahead..ganbatte..^^
Monday, February 22, 2010
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Break Up
this time right on my new post i break up with my bf
im crying when writing this
im single again
"im happy if u r happy"
thats what i told him
my love to him was my last love story
wondering what should i do next
now googling on suicide methods..
should search the one that wont hurt & fast
so i could take care of him,always by his side
dear..i love u forever and always
yes,,i am stupid
im crying when writing this
im single again
"im happy if u r happy"
thats what i told him
my love to him was my last love story
wondering what should i do next
now googling on suicide methods..
should search the one that wont hurt & fast
so i could take care of him,always by his side
dear..i love u forever and always
yes,,i am stupid
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
tips of the day
Here's im sharing 3 tips to reduce acne,not that i got a super clean face now,i still got acne,but now just left scar..im just giving a bit tips to reduce it..lots of people already know this trick,i think..
1. rarely hang-out,not asking to be a good child at home,but thats the way to prevent the direct sunlight hit ur face,u dont want anybody saw ur face's acne in scarlet..lols
2. Had ur face cleaned twice each time u wash ur face on the bathroom,if u wash 3 times a day,that means u clean 6 times,dont use too much soap,cause im not asking u too quickly spend ur facial cleanser, a bit should already able to cover ur entire face,dont forget to massage it using a circular motion on the forehead,cheek,nose-side,mouth-side,between eyes
3. if u r going to do sport or other sweating activity,dont use any hair-gel,cause when u sweat,the gel cames down along that water to ur face then TADAAA!! Congrats,u had another baby on ur face..lols
I dont know if anybody might think im crazy saying this 3 ideas,but it works on me..
Old people say about what increase acne:
- mind, they mean stress
- late-sleep
- chocolate,they mean the calories
- never eat any fruits&vegetables,cause my fridge always full of fruits&vegetable always leftover
But not a bad idea to try what they asked us to do..if it doesnt work well on reducing acne,well,its a way to lead a healthy life right? =P
1. rarely hang-out,not asking to be a good child at home,but thats the way to prevent the direct sunlight hit ur face,u dont want anybody saw ur face's acne in scarlet..lols
2. Had ur face cleaned twice each time u wash ur face on the bathroom,if u wash 3 times a day,that means u clean 6 times,dont use too much soap,cause im not asking u too quickly spend ur facial cleanser, a bit should already able to cover ur entire face,dont forget to massage it using a circular motion on the forehead,cheek,nose-side,mouth-side,between eyes
3. if u r going to do sport or other sweating activity,dont use any hair-gel,cause when u sweat,the gel cames down along that water to ur face then TADAAA!! Congrats,u had another baby on ur face..lols
I dont know if anybody might think im crazy saying this 3 ideas,but it works on me..
Old people say about what increase acne:
- mind, they mean stress
- late-sleep
- chocolate,they mean the calories
- never eat any fruits&vegetables,cause my fridge always full of fruits&vegetable always leftover
But not a bad idea to try what they asked us to do..if it doesnt work well on reducing acne,well,its a way to lead a healthy life right? =P
Friday, February 5, 2010
a "why" and "when"
this topic i heard from my friend,quite interesting^^
If u were a gay
the most common question asked will be "Why & when?"
A: someone
B: my friend
__________________________________________
A: why u like boy?
Me: walao,,why boy like girl or girl like boy?
A: so u r a girl?
Me: crazy!! i didnt do that kind of surgery,if its love,does it need reason?
A: of coz! u like boy! thats weird! u r a boy!
Me: what weird? u r the one weird
A: Huh? why me?
Me: of coz weird,if u could ans why u like girl,then i could ans why i like boy
A: why like that?
Me: if its love,no need to diffrentiate,at least both happy
A: ur parents not sad?
Me: why should they sad? i`m a killer? terorist? corruptor?
A: no,,i mean if u r a gay that means u shame ur family
Me: why should they shy? even a killer could be understand by his parents,myself,who`s a gay that born on wrong place and time should be victim? because this is east not west? if so,lter i move to America,,lols
A: not like that,,i mean cant give children to continue generation
Me: wedding story?lols..how about someone who cant pregnant or cant have any kid at all? they wont be sad?lols..for me marriage is a sacred union,trust and loyal to each other,unseparateable till death took its part
A: yeah,,but still ur parents sad
Me: listen..if they r really my parents,if i was really part of their own blood,if they really love me,then if i`m happy,they should be happy too. am i right? just think,if they dont happy,that means they act love u,perhaps just love the money..=P..lol
A: not like that,u r a gay
Me: i know i`m a gay,so??if i`m a gay should i die? i`m a gay i may not socialize with the public? the world? listen,,if my parents able to give money to poor people,pet a pet with love,care with plants,but disgust with their own child,,are they supposed to called a good parents? they r a Buddhist,and they r taught loving one another.
A: (silent)(then continue)since when u bcome gay?
Me: since i`m still unborn on my mom`s stomach,not on ur mom`s..=P..lols..
A: how come?
Me: how come i know?does anybody ever wished to be a gay? not right..if u believe in GOD,then u`ll believe in fate,and fate is cruel,but i`m personally don`t really believe in GOD,doesnt mean im not normal..lols
A: u didn`t believe in GOD? AHA!! thats why u r gay
Me: LMAO!!u think all gay should use make up,sissy or didnt believe in GOD? big NO..gay could be anywhere,anytime,anybody..even a father at church could be a gay okay? gay isnt a disease..
A: who say its not? if not then what?
Me: swt..u r a doctor? psychologist? how come u can say gay is a disease? dont judge anything before finding facts
A: zz...like u know
Me: if i dont know,impossible i dare to answer all ur question,,according to world psychology for 35 years research result gay isnt a disease,in 1973, APA(American Psychiatric Association) remove the word "homosexual" from the list of mental illness and disease,they say nothing could change these people to turn back succeed,in fact even worse,which means forcing them to lie themselves
_________________________________________________
till here is the last thing i heard..>.<"
if i were him i`d been block that person..too many question,,makes me angry
kakakakaX..
If u were a gay
the most common question asked will be "Why & when?"
A: someone
B: my friend
__________________________________________
A: why u like boy?
Me: walao,,why boy like girl or girl like boy?
A: so u r a girl?
Me: crazy!! i didnt do that kind of surgery,if its love,does it need reason?
A: of coz! u like boy! thats weird! u r a boy!
Me: what weird? u r the one weird
A: Huh? why me?
Me: of coz weird,if u could ans why u like girl,then i could ans why i like boy
A: why like that?
Me: if its love,no need to diffrentiate,at least both happy
A: ur parents not sad?
Me: why should they sad? i`m a killer? terorist? corruptor?
A: no,,i mean if u r a gay that means u shame ur family
Me: why should they shy? even a killer could be understand by his parents,myself,who`s a gay that born on wrong place and time should be victim? because this is east not west? if so,lter i move to America,,lols
A: not like that,,i mean cant give children to continue generation
Me: wedding story?lols..how about someone who cant pregnant or cant have any kid at all? they wont be sad?lols..for me marriage is a sacred union,trust and loyal to each other,unseparateable till death took its part
A: yeah,,but still ur parents sad
Me: listen..if they r really my parents,if i was really part of their own blood,if they really love me,then if i`m happy,they should be happy too. am i right? just think,if they dont happy,that means they act love u,perhaps just love the money..=P..lol
A: not like that,u r a gay
Me: i know i`m a gay,so??if i`m a gay should i die? i`m a gay i may not socialize with the public? the world? listen,,if my parents able to give money to poor people,pet a pet with love,care with plants,but disgust with their own child,,are they supposed to called a good parents? they r a Buddhist,and they r taught loving one another.
A: (silent)(then continue)since when u bcome gay?
Me: since i`m still unborn on my mom`s stomach,not on ur mom`s..=P..lols..
A: how come?
Me: how come i know?does anybody ever wished to be a gay? not right..if u believe in GOD,then u`ll believe in fate,and fate is cruel,but i`m personally don`t really believe in GOD,doesnt mean im not normal..lols
A: u didn`t believe in GOD? AHA!! thats why u r gay
Me: LMAO!!u think all gay should use make up,sissy or didnt believe in GOD? big NO..gay could be anywhere,anytime,anybody..even a father at church could be a gay okay? gay isnt a disease..
A: who say its not? if not then what?
Me: swt..u r a doctor? psychologist? how come u can say gay is a disease? dont judge anything before finding facts
A: zz...like u know
Me: if i dont know,impossible i dare to answer all ur question,,according to world psychology for 35 years research result gay isnt a disease,in 1973, APA(American Psychiatric Association) remove the word "homosexual" from the list of mental illness and disease,they say nothing could change these people to turn back succeed,in fact even worse,which means forcing them to lie themselves
_________________________________________________
till here is the last thing i heard..>.<"
if i were him i`d been block that person..too many question,,makes me angry
kakakakaX..
Friday, January 22, 2010
When ex-good-friend become an enemy
if blog means to share our feeling instead of keeping ourself
then today`s blog is a bit harsh to heard,,according to me though
*Pardon me for the grammatical error*
I know lots of people had experience as what my note title say,,i'm just another human being who need to confess in order to claim my used-to-be comfortable sleep..
Here's my mail to u who did mistake to me 'IF YOU REALIZE'
1st person: "sorry i got a girls mouth,but thanks GOD who gave me that skill to tell anybody which i think kind and pity enough if he/she had to felt ur worse attitude..if u think u r not worse,i'll refresh ur mind..rmmber when u begging me accompany u to a party? I agreed & u ask me to come at 1 o'clock,,i waited for 1 hour and u finnaly showed up saying ''i had a dinner with my friends''..thats it? not even a single sorry? U gotta be kidding me..and just for this i've turn mad and write this note?not yet..i'll take u back to another scene..that day i'm havin an exam at college,,u as my senior,i ask u to come at my house & teach me..u told me u got assignment so i told u just came teach me a while after that u may do ur assignment & i continued my study,,u agreed..i wait 2 or more hours and u not yet coming,i called asking why u didnt come,you told me that u forgot&now doing ur assignment,after hang up the phone i wait for another 1 hours,,called 2nd time ''why not yet come?'', u answered ''u told me to come?''..oh my godness,,if u read what i say, u might be shouting there saying "I DIDN'T DO AS WHAT U WRITTEN!!"..yeah yeah..now u had a grandpa brain..then,,finally i said "i dun wish to be ur bestfriend anymore"..even now when we dont talk much anymore,when u saw me u always pull my hand & punch my arm so harsh,,u act like playing but actually u mean on that pulling&punching..u think i don't know?? The day i decide not to recognize u as my best bud,i received plenty sms saying im a girls mouth,money face,etc..should i kept an eye on u?
2nd person: cheat..what is cheat? What do u know about cheating couple? Do u even know about best-friend? would u stop saying everybody who take pictures with me is the one whom i cheat with? They r my friends dude..gosh..since when u became so sensitive? U think i dunno u tried to steal my couple? Few months ago i had my break up,saw ur name on my ex inbox..perhaps u r the one who ruin my relationship..present,i had another couple,u send friend request to my couple,just few seconds after u r getting confirm then u directly ask for my couple's mobile number?Until now i dont know what is ur background on doing all that things to me..what r u trying to do? Seeking revenge? On what? I barely know u,not yet even met you!!!
3rd person: .....
-------------back to myself---------------
*phone rang*
Sms coming in from my baby..
''dear,calm down..''
Yes i will dear,,i had enough babbling..remember a friend say as long as i think what i did is right,then its ok...
Yeah,,what i did is nothing wrong.. Just them who still dun realize their mistakes..
Prays BUDDHA to open back their mind..
P.S.:u should thank me for not mentioning ur name above..i think i still on my good-self
then today`s blog is a bit harsh to heard,,according to me though
*Pardon me for the grammatical error*
I know lots of people had experience as what my note title say,,i'm just another human being who need to confess in order to claim my used-to-be comfortable sleep..
Here's my mail to u who did mistake to me 'IF YOU REALIZE'
1st person: "sorry i got a girls mouth,but thanks GOD who gave me that skill to tell anybody which i think kind and pity enough if he/she had to felt ur worse attitude..if u think u r not worse,i'll refresh ur mind..rmmber when u begging me accompany u to a party? I agreed & u ask me to come at 1 o'clock,,i waited for 1 hour and u finnaly showed up saying ''i had a dinner with my friends''..thats it? not even a single sorry? U gotta be kidding me..and just for this i've turn mad and write this note?not yet..i'll take u back to another scene..that day i'm havin an exam at college,,u as my senior,i ask u to come at my house & teach me..u told me u got assignment so i told u just came teach me a while after that u may do ur assignment & i continued my study,,u agreed..i wait 2 or more hours and u not yet coming,i called asking why u didnt come,you told me that u forgot&now doing ur assignment,after hang up the phone i wait for another 1 hours,,called 2nd time ''why not yet come?'', u answered ''u told me to come?''..oh my godness,,if u read what i say, u might be shouting there saying "I DIDN'T DO AS WHAT U WRITTEN!!"..yeah yeah..now u had a grandpa brain..then,,finally i said "i dun wish to be ur bestfriend anymore"..even now when we dont talk much anymore,when u saw me u always pull my hand & punch my arm so harsh,,u act like playing but actually u mean on that pulling&punching..u think i don't know?? The day i decide not to recognize u as my best bud,i received plenty sms saying im a girls mouth,money face,etc..should i kept an eye on u?
2nd person: cheat..what is cheat? What do u know about cheating couple? Do u even know about best-friend? would u stop saying everybody who take pictures with me is the one whom i cheat with? They r my friends dude..gosh..since when u became so sensitive? U think i dunno u tried to steal my couple? Few months ago i had my break up,saw ur name on my ex inbox..perhaps u r the one who ruin my relationship..present,i had another couple,u send friend request to my couple,just few seconds after u r getting confirm then u directly ask for my couple's mobile number?Until now i dont know what is ur background on doing all that things to me..what r u trying to do? Seeking revenge? On what? I barely know u,not yet even met you!!!
3rd person: .....
-------------back to myself---------------
*phone rang*
Sms coming in from my baby..
''dear,calm down..''
Yes i will dear,,i had enough babbling..remember a friend say as long as i think what i did is right,then its ok...
Yeah,,what i did is nothing wrong.. Just them who still dun realize their mistakes..
Prays BUDDHA to open back their mind..
P.S.:u should thank me for not mentioning ur name above..i think i still on my good-self
Sunday, September 6, 2009
random question -part 1-
here`s question i`ve tiring to answer
i think everyone guy get the chance to be asked this question too
well..
i`m just sharing my answer and sth in my mind would say at that time
1.hi!
-hi too (huh? u r?)
2.have we chat before?
-nope^^ (if i say yes,i bet u don`t even remember again~ ==")
3.u r so friendly^^
-where got la...hhax (baby...u r falling to me)
4.may i know ur mobile number?if u dunwan also nvm
-sry^^..i dun share my mobile numbr on fb (mke urself good-looking,then i share..=P)
stingy!!!
-zzzzzz (WTF!! LMAO!!! WHAT HAPPEN TO NVM?!!)
5.i`m so sorry to tell u..i`m gay...hope u dont mind chatting with me
-nvm^^ (i think i`m one of u dude)
6.so,what r u doin now?
-just chat^^ u?(breathing as usual)
same lor^^
-oo..^^ (lol..u r not breathing?)
7.where are u from?
-medan,indo^^ (yeah..send me money for shopping please)
8.why u move there?
-i was born here^^..u dunno indo got many chinese? (this question again??)
9.nice to meet u^^
-nice to meet u too^^ (i never met u before)
10.wow..u r so lengzai
-lols..thnk..XD (woo-hoo!!! yee-ha!!)
ah...
gee gee gee
there go again
i forget the next question~~
to be continued
lols
i think everyone guy get the chance to be asked this question too
well..
i`m just sharing my answer and sth in my mind would say at that time
1.hi!
-hi too (huh? u r?)
2.have we chat before?
-nope^^ (if i say yes,i bet u don`t even remember again~ ==")
3.u r so friendly^^
-where got la...hhax (baby...u r falling to me)
4.may i know ur mobile number?if u dunwan also nvm
-sry^^..i dun share my mobile numbr on fb (mke urself good-looking,then i share..=P)
stingy!!!
-zzzzzz (WTF!! LMAO!!! WHAT HAPPEN TO NVM?!!)
5.i`m so sorry to tell u..i`m gay...hope u dont mind chatting with me
-nvm^^ (i think i`m one of u dude)
6.so,what r u doin now?
-just chat^^ u?(breathing as usual)
same lor^^
-oo..^^ (lol..u r not breathing?)
7.where are u from?
-medan,indo^^ (yeah..send me money for shopping please)
8.why u move there?
-i was born here^^..u dunno indo got many chinese? (this question again??)
9.nice to meet u^^
-nice to meet u too^^ (i never met u before)
10.wow..u r so lengzai
-lols..thnk..XD (woo-hoo!!! yee-ha!!)
ah...
gee gee gee
there go again
i forget the next question~~
to be continued
lols
Thursday, August 27, 2009
college start in september
means what?
gonna have some "ospek"!!
*gee gee gee gee baby baby baby*
what is ospek?
well,to tell its only exist in indonesia (i think)
where all the senior bullying the junior(me)
the main reason the government ask to do this ospek is to introduce us to our new university
well..
but as i said again the thing that happen not introduce-ING but bully-ING
*gee gee gee gee baby baby baby*
umm...
actually not a big deal for me
until i heard in the university that i`m goin to apply,the man with long hair gonna be the one who get bullied the most
WTF???????!!!!
ospek was going for a week and i`m gonna get bullied for a week?!!!
i`m gonna last at hospital for sure
damn ospek!!!
its a hard work to made it all this long
*readers,dont go swt,cuz our high school didn permit any long hair,everyone almost go botak at our high school*
so it was quite meaningful to made my hair long-er than usual
from this:
become like this:
yeah im angry
ToT
gonna wait for months again
*gee gee gee gee baby baby baby*(its gee by girls generation)
means what?
gonna have some "ospek"!!
*gee gee gee gee baby baby baby*
what is ospek?
well,to tell its only exist in indonesia (i think)
where all the senior bullying the junior(me)
the main reason the government ask to do this ospek is to introduce us to our new university
well..
but as i said again the thing that happen not introduce-ING but bully-ING
*gee gee gee gee baby baby baby*
umm...
actually not a big deal for me
until i heard in the university that i`m goin to apply,the man with long hair gonna be the one who get bullied the most
WTF???????!!!!
ospek was going for a week and i`m gonna get bullied for a week?!!!
i`m gonna last at hospital for sure
damn ospek!!!
its a hard work to made it all this long
*readers,dont go swt,cuz our high school didn permit any long hair,everyone almost go botak at our high school*
so it was quite meaningful to made my hair long-er than usual
from this:
become like this:
yeah im angry
ToT
gonna wait for months again
*gee gee gee gee baby baby baby*(its gee by girls generation)
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