For u..

Dear..i really had forgotten that u read my blog..i shouldnt have post it..its the most stupid mistake to ever let u know hows my feeling..now u hurt even more..i'm terribly sorry..this morning when i play 'kelly chen-love paradise' song..i had a dejavu when we both sing together...i was so happy..and so..when i try to sing that song again i dunno why the tear kept on falling down,my voice shake too much..i had no more courage to sing that song..
Yesterday u told me u think of doing suicide..i would never let that happen,if u insist on doing that,,i'll follow u..i dont care what people think about me..all my mind is only filled with u..
If u wish me to be happy,stay alive..im happy as long as u r happy..nobody can replace u in my heart.. I LOVE U..
Im sorry if my sms sounds harsh..but i did that so u could quickly erase me from ur mind..ur bright future lies ahead..ganbatte..^^

Break Up

this time right on my new post i break up with my bf
im crying when writing this
im single again
"im happy if u r happy"
thats what i told him
my love to him was my last love story
wondering what should i do next
now googling on suicide methods..
should search the one that wont hurt & fast
so i could take care of him,always by his side
dear..i love u forever and always
yes,,i am stupid

tips of the day

Here's im sharing 3 tips to reduce acne,not that i got a super clean face now,i still got acne,but now just left scar..im just giving a bit tips to reduce it..lots of people already know this trick,i think..

1. rarely hang-out,not asking to be a good child at home,but thats the way to prevent the direct sunlight hit ur face,u dont want anybody saw ur face's acne in scarlet..lols
2. Had ur face cleaned twice each time u wash ur face on the bathroom,if u wash 3 times a day,that means u clean 6 times,dont use too much soap,cause im not asking u too quickly spend ur facial cleanser, a bit should already able to cover ur entire face,dont forget to massage it using a circular motion on the forehead,cheek,nose-side,mouth-side,between eyes
3. if u r going to do sport or other sweating activity,dont use any hair-gel,cause when u sweat,the gel cames down along that water to ur face then TADAAA!! Congrats,u had another baby on ur face..lols

I dont know if anybody might think im crazy saying this 3 ideas,but it works on me..

Old people say about what increase acne:
- mind, they mean stress
- late-sleep
- chocolate,they mean the calories
- never eat any fruits&vegetables,cause my fridge always full of fruits&vegetable always leftover

But not a bad idea to try what they asked us to do..if it doesnt work well on reducing acne,well,its a way to lead a healthy life right? =P

a "why" and "when"

this topic i heard from my friend,quite interesting^^

If u were a gay
the most common question asked will be "Why & when?"
A: someone
B: my friend
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A: why u like boy?

Me: walao,,why boy like girl or girl like boy?

A: so u r a girl?

Me: crazy!! i didnt do that kind of surgery,if its love,does it need reason?

A: of coz! u like boy! thats weird! u r a boy!

Me: what weird? u r the one weird

A: Huh? why me?

Me: of coz weird,if u could ans why u like girl,then i could ans why i like boy

A: why like that?

Me: if its love,no need to diffrentiate,at least both happy

A: ur parents not sad?

Me: why should they sad? i`m a killer? terorist? corruptor?

A: no,,i mean if u r a gay that means u shame ur family

Me: why should they shy? even a killer could be understand by his parents,myself,who`s a gay that born on wrong place and time should be victim? because this is east not west? if so,lter i move to America,,lols

A: not like that,,i mean cant give children to continue generation

Me: wedding story?lols..how about someone who cant pregnant or cant have any kid at all? they wont be sad?lols..for me marriage is a sacred union,trust and loyal to each other,unseparateable till death took its part

A: yeah,,but still ur parents sad

Me: listen..if they r really my parents,if i was really part of their own blood,if they really love me,then if i`m happy,they should be happy too. am i right? just think,if they dont happy,that means they act love u,perhaps just love the money..=P..lol

A: not like that,u r a gay

Me: i know i`m a gay,so??if i`m a gay should i die? i`m a gay i may not socialize with the public? the world? listen,,if my parents able to give money to poor people,pet a pet with love,care with plants,but disgust with their own child,,are they supposed to called a good parents? they r a Buddhist,and they r taught loving one another.

A: (silent)(then continue)since when u bcome gay?

Me: since i`m still unborn on my mom`s stomach,not on ur mom`s..=P..lols..

A: how come?

Me: how come i know?does anybody ever wished to be a gay? not right..if u believe in GOD,then u`ll believe in fate,and fate is cruel,but i`m personally don`t really believe in GOD,doesnt mean im not normal..lols

A: u didn`t believe in GOD? AHA!! thats why u r gay

Me: LMAO!!u think all gay should use make up,sissy or didnt believe in GOD? big NO..gay could be anywhere,anytime,anybody..even a father at church could be a gay okay? gay isnt a disease..

A: who say its not? if not then what?

Me: swt..u r a doctor? psychologist? how come u can say gay is a disease? dont judge anything before finding facts

A: zz...like u know

Me: if i dont know,impossible i dare to answer all ur question,,according to world psychology for 35 years research result gay isnt a disease,in 1973, APA(American Psychiatric Association) remove the word "homosexual" from the list of mental illness and disease,they say nothing could change these people to turn back succeed,in fact even worse,which means forcing them to lie themselves

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till here is the last thing i heard..>.<"
if i were him i`d been block that person..too many question,,makes me angry
kakakakaX..